"Someday I pray.. that i'll find the strength.. To turn to you and say.. If I was the one who was loving you.. the only tears you'll cry will be tears of joy.. And if i was by your side.. you'll never know one lonely night.. And if it was my arms you were running to.. I'd give you love in these arms of mine.. If I was the one in your life..."
Why is it so hard to express your feelings for a person you like when she likes someone else?
I thought I was done with all the questions last night.. but still.. I can't help but ask some more (the serious ones).. new questions keep on lingering in my mind when i talk to the people involved, listen on what other people say about them, reading their blog, etc.. argh.. When will it stop? oooohh.. a new question.. hehehe.. here's a poem i made before that can explain what i feel right now.. i really haven't thought of a good title yet.. but here goes:
I once lived a life when everything seemed ordinary
all was so boring and unreasonably tragic
but you came and something happened to me
you made my life unexpectedly complete
meeting you was the best that ever happened to me
every thing and every moment became a lot better
perhaps things were really meant to be
and im glad i was there when you were
i think of you every second of the day
always wishing for you to be near
hoping to you i can finally say
you're the only reason why im here
your company takes me out of the blue
wanted to be close even just for awhile
as you look at me i feel something new
you melt my heart with just one smile
i know everything is happening too fast
and i should keep things where they should be
but if i keep it inside i would not last
i would burst and breakdown easily
i know what im feeling is true
i just dont know what to do
i really wanted to say something to you
im starting to fall in love with you
la lang.. woah.. hehehe.. too many questions in my mind.. im surrounded by a bunch of lines right now.. been looking around my room and found these pieces of paper with lines from movies.. they say:
"it's breaking my heart and i don't know what to do.."
"you can't lose what you can't have.."
"i may never be perfect for you.."
"i must learn to live without you.."
"i have so much to give yet the one that i love doesn't want it.."
i like the last one.. nyaha.. can relate? maybe.. in a way.. hehehe.. waaaahhh.. it's 3:30 na.. i have speed meeting in one hour.. la lang.. im in mushy mode right now.. just hope i shift into my own self again when i go back to admu.. la lang.. hehehe.. last hirit na.. maybe it really is harsh reality.. maybe she really likes that guy.. but how can i be sure if i won't try.. labo b? hehehe.. it's like the line in the movie "Vanilla Sky" (here i go again)..
"Without the bitter, the sweet ain't a sweet.."
im really not sure if that's the exact words used.. basta it goes something like that..
