Sudden Twist of Events

"I lose my way.. And it's not too long before you point it out.. I cannot cry.. Because I know that's weakness in your eyes.. I'm force to fake a smile, a laugh.. Every day of my life.. My heart can't possibly break.. When it wasn't even whole to start with..."

waaaahh.. i lost my phone yesterday.. i slept with it beside me last saturday.. then when i woke up.. *poof* it was gone.. can't seem to find it anywhere.. now i'm stuck with my sun.. argh.. can't text much..

is this the price you pay for helping another person? you try to help out in every way you can and this is what you get...

recently.. i've been shocked with all the grades i'm getting.. la lang...

i did what i wanted to do.. i said what i wanted to say.. i should be happy about it.. but somehow i feel something's missing...

Indecisive

"Been thinkin' 'bout you baby.. And I don't know what to do.. All I think about is you.. Seems everything around me.. Things I never understood.. They all make sense when I'm with you.. I've heard it all before.. Finding so-called love and then leave it behind.. But now I feel so sure.. Listen to my heart this time.. So I lay it on the line.. I know that what I found is once in a lifetime..."

we won!! yippee.. hehehe.. yesterday was our volleyball tournament for PE which would determine our final grade in PE.. At first.. we were really tensed and were making lousy services.. but as the game went on.. nyaha.. we really were playing better.. team work.. we only had 2 games and won both with a 2 set streak.. hehehe.. and guess who's the captain? *ehem* nyaha.. hehehe.. i invited ryan, pat, debby, joey, kyle, jd, and charmie to watch the game.. but no one came.. grrrrrrrr.. but it's all good since mars and chill were there.. thanks for the support!! you're the best!!

hold on.. don't give up.. show me what he's done to you.. stand up with confidence.. a broken heart can't be that bad.. when it's through.. it's through.. fate will twist the both of you.. so come on over.. let me be the one to show you.. i'm the one who wants to be with you.. deep inside i hope you feel it to.. waiting on the line of dreams and blues.. just to be the next to be with you.. build up your confidence.. so you can be on top for once.. wake up.. who cares about.. little boy that talk too much.. i've seen it all go down.. your game of love was all rained out.. so come on over.. let me be the one to hold you.. i'm the one who wants to be with you...

Fishy Wonderin'

"You and I got something and it's all but then it's nothing to me.. And I got my defenses when it comes to your intentions for me.. And we wake up in the breakdown of the things we never thought we could be.. I'm not the one who broke you.. I'm not the one you should fear.. I thought I lost you somewhere.. But you were never really ever there at all..."

UAAP basketball season is officially over for the Ateneo Blue Eagles.. ADMU lost again to DLSU a while ago.. darn.. it was a really close fight in the first two quarters.. ADMU even gained the lead at half time.. but in the 3rd quarter.. DLSU regained the lead.. LA even had a cramped calf muscle which worsened the situation.. DLSU won with a big lead.. but hey.. i'm just glad the eagles got into the final four.. and i'm also glad that i didn't get to see Arana dance again.. sheesh.. today was also the last day of the UAAP swimming competition.. i hope they won.. the team this year is really good.. new talents.. Go Ateneo!! One Big Fight!!

i went to the final SpeEd area last Friday.. there were only seven of us.. edith, makaw, din, charvic, chris, charmie, and me.. we still had fun with the kids.. dancing the hokey pokey.. watching them color.. and taking lots of pictures.. uber fun.. hehehe.. i hope the farewell party next week will go as planned..

and i'd do anything for you.. i'll give you up.. if that's what i should do to make you happy.. i can pretend each time i see you that i don't care and i don't need you.. and though inside i feel like dying.. you know you'll never see me crying.. don't you ever think that i don't love you.. that for one minute i forgot you.. but sometimes things don't work out right.. and you just have to say goodbye.. don't want to say goobye...

it's nice to see old friends again.. la lang.. had fun last sat.. too deep to share..

Hear me.. Please...

"You came along unexpectedly.. I was doing fine in my little world.. Baby please don't get me wrong.. 'coz I'm not complaining.. But you see.. You got my mind spinning..."

i like you.. i really do...

Confusion drives me crazy.. well.. crazier...

"It's amazing how you knock me off my feet.. everytime you come around me i get weak.. nobody ever made me feel this way.. you kiss my lips then you take my breath away.. so.. i wanna know..."

whew.. just got home.. i'm so glad that there are no classes tomorrow.. i can finally rest.. well.. somehow..

the game last saturday against UE was great.. la lang.. it was really fun.. it was actually my first time to watch a game live.. by the way.. thanks Joey!! hehehe.. i really had fun.. joke time si Jerome.. hehehe.. while watching the game.. Joey was telling me what her dad says about being bad luck when she watches the game.. hehehe.. guess he was wrong.. see Joey? i told you you're not bad luck.. you're good luck pa nga eh.. nyaha.. anyways.. we were leading from 1st to 4th quarter.. the last quarter was the most intense part.. we were already standing just to cheer for the team.. we were shouting and clapping like crazy.. hehehe.. all those 3 points and fast breaks made by LA and JC.. damn.. the adrenaline.. hihihi.. my first time watching.. and we won.. super fun..

i went to the province after the game.. it was already 7:30 in the evening and was really raining hard.. argh.. i really can't drive without my glasses especially at night.. it was so dark and i can hardly see.. i'm just glad i made it through the dark slippery road.. damn.. i'm never doing that again.. anyways.. i went straight to my grandmother's house and stayed there for a couple of minutes.. after.. i went to my english blockmate's party.. nothing much happened.. met some new people.. drank.. as usual.. but.. too much happy horse ain't fun anymore.. it's suicide.. la lang.. i'm so bad.. i was making fun of people there.. la lang.. everyone was happy naman eh.. laugh trip nga eh.. hehehe.. went home 3 in the morning.. again.. belated happy birthday Carl..

i left the prov at about 5 in the afternoon.. it was my auntie's birthday and i had to be in greenbelt by 7.. but.. i arrived at my house at 7:30.. so quickly freshened up then went to the party.. i was so late that when i arrived there they were already eating dessert.. i ended up eating salad instead of a nice steak.. argh.. but it was alright.. since i've been craving for salad in the past few days.. hehehe.. healthy eating.. after.. a few picture taking.. then we all went home.. usually.. i don't want to be alone while eating, studying, watching movies, and doing other stuff.. but i didn't want to go home yet.. i was suppose to watch a movie.. but i didn't feel like it anymore.. so i went straight to starbuck's and read a book while drinking coffee.. i felt at peace.. nyaha.. i realized that it's fun din pala in a way.. la lang.. it makes you focus on what you're doing and think clearly about stuff.. i want to do it again.. hehehe..

lately.. confusion drives me nuts.. it makes me think a lot of stuff that i really don't want to think about for the moment.. damn..

have you ever felt you wanted to tell a person something but couldn't because you feel that it isn't really the right time?

Maybe enough really isn't enough

"It's not an easy thing to do.. sometimes it's hard to face the truth.. it's not the life I would choose.. but what else can I do.. if she don't love me.. if she don't want me.. I'm not about to sit around.. let myself go..."

it was flooding in Katipunan at a while ago.. waaaaahh.. as in really flood.. i'm just glad that i didn't bring my car.. if i did.. damn.. stranded..

anyways.. i watched "the truth about love" with bes after eco class.. krista was supposed to come but.. hehehe.. let's just say that "something came up".. the movie was really cute.. not that mushy as "if only" but mushy in another way.. hehehe.. i didn't get much quotes from the movie since all the lines were already used up.. one line was:

"be my valentine and i'll raddish you..."

la lang.. laugh trip.. hehehe.. bes was laughing so much that all the other people watching were all yelling at her.. hehehe.. jwk.. the next line was:

"i've had enough..."

see.. i told you most lines were already used up.. hehehe.. still it made me think.. again.. but before i get to that.. you should watch the movie.. it's really nice.. in a cute kinda way..

i'm so tired of picking up the pieces.. i tried to talk to you.. but you didn't listen.. i tried to show you i care.. but you couldn't see.. though it seems hard.. i would still try as much as i can...

"Waiting is painful.. Forgetting is painful.. But not knowing which to do is the worst kind of suffering"

~By the River Piedra I sat down and wept

Inside a Pink Room

"I want to be inside your heaven.. take me to the place you cry from.. where the storm blows your ways.. I wanna be the earth that holds you.. every bit of air you breath in.. of soothin' wind.. i want to be inside your heaven..."

I'm in beshy's apartment right now.. we were supposed to study for eco.. but charmie fell asleep.. so yun.. bes and i ended up sound tripping na lang.. tsk tsk.. charmie.. sleeping like a baby.. eheheh..

won't be attending the SPEED meeting later.. la lang.. there's just something in this apartment that make me not want to leave.. hehehe.. maybe it's the color of bessy's room.. so pink!! or maybe it's manang's fury.. the fury of the hawk.. ehehehe..

Yehey! charmie's awake na.. oops.. my bad.. she fell asleep again..